i just heard about this concept on sunday morning. i suppose i've made such a hard habit of improving myself - now as i let go of that, and move on to acceptance (and gratitude), i feel like i'm taking the piss out of other people's time.
(i guess you have to be me to understand that one).
i'm slowly starting to laugh at myself. in a good way.
. . . . .
okay, here's a turn off: chilling/having an evening with someone of the opposite sex who purposefully does not engage my intelligence. actually it's very rare that a guy would engage me in some witty repartée (which is why i can count how many male friends i have on two hands), but uh. if i'm going to respectfully listen & nod to your views on pop culture, crack, the economy, and babies, it only makes sense that i get a say - that you'll respect - as well.
and depending on how well that goes, it just might count as intellectual foreplay... which i LOVE.
so get your brain out of 1955 dude.
anyway, keep it simple.
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no pain, no gain. i'm re-inventing this concept to fit my spiritual growth. i used to be scared of getting hurt emotionally. but now that i've been bruised, it's helping me to find out about myself. and that's even more painful! without it though, i don't think i'd be the person who i am today. even if it means that truthfully, i don't feel that great today. but why fight it? not feeling well, sadness, frustration, confusion - they're just as important & meaningful as happiness, success, serenity... it's all real.
calm.
cloud.
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