write it down.

2001. notes.

i'm getting back into the habit of writing things down. it was getting lackluster for a second, but i think i was writing about things that didn't matter. or rather they're only starting to matter now. anyway it's all real. the dots are connecting.

i think the most challenging thing for me right now is balancing out my nature to take care of others before me. well let me preface by saying i always assumed that i was already all good (i.e. forever-positive, set for life), so there was nothing left to do but help other people achieve that potential in themselves. needless to say that meanwhile i ended up putting myself aside. it was bound to happen. and now as i learn how to level the two out, it's a bit painful. similar to your typical animal documentary where, say a lioness leads her cub out into the wild and leaves them there to learn to fend for themselves. i as the mom. and the cub being me. grief. but i have to let go. the only way to grow.

the sun's shining. al-anon is free therapy. and apparently kobe doesn't wear his heart on his sleeve.

alright vernacular. these first couple of weeks of 09 have been... i don't know, coincidental? i guess that's the best way to describe it. i've been unable to take charge or plan too far ahead. i think it goes back to my learning to balance out my tendency to take care of others before myself... and just good old-fashioned vulnerability. voila. i feel like i can only go as far as showing up to the game as stepping up to the plate is just a little too much for me right now. shit, even showing up can be entertainingly difficult. thank god for amazing friends. oh wow!

inger's l.a. visit (my fave spot on the westside).

nail sesh with lani.

saturday wake up call.






lani & her best women.

petals & toes.

mr. & mrs. quiambao.

the always lovely kate (& alyssa).

alyssa is sunshine.

the odyssey. it was a trip being back there.

mark & his inaanak mila in glendale.

the bday hostess in event coordinator mode.

bro & the pamamkin q.

hams.

landon & q.



the sunset on imperial ave. (post lax drop off)

then dropped by culver city to chill with the franks.

parker is funny.

kodi bear. (who's a good boy)



no time for dilly-dallying. it's all about honesty. doucement.

soulful.

there's something to note about things that don't start nor end. they just are. they are very sweet and rare and i love.

what can i say. it's really the little things that get me. i'm a fool for subtleties.

carrot & chocolate cake with the mighty m's on 4th & main. thank you!

my second home.

let's see. my mind is thinking in snippets. i just realized that that's a good thing. thoughts come and go. and the critical thinking has moved away from trying to keep up with tradition into building bridges between service and art. simply put.

word of the day: sweet.

checklists are effective. write it down.

l.a. new year.

beach & sun into 09. it's the only sure thing.