& it goes a little something like this.

there are no need for words any more. we all know who's got to go.
Originally uploaded by mjane.

i received a pretty big blow to my career-oriented ego today. just as i was getting comfy with the idea of making this surf company a force to be reckoned with in barcelona - fuck it - europe, i'd been brought back to the front desk with only a possible future in warehouse operations in sight. ouch. the idea that my spanish-language skills would extend only to the savviest of DHL or FedEx drivers hit me where it hurts.

oh buddy, this is where the old "grass is greener" saying comes into play again. and it sure can fuck a girl up thinking about where that grass grows. am i a masochist? because the reality is, it grows wherever the fuck you're not. i usually realize this midway through my greener-grass daydreaming, and like clockwork, go into the next time-old saying, something about having the "best of both worlds." why not?, i wonder. and as yet another saying goes, "you can't have your cake and eat it too." still, i can't help but wonder, why not?

perhaps those two little words make up a saying of its own.